Going Home

It’s been a while since I’ve last blogged but I’ve had little to report over the last few weeks as Stephanie’s been in Hope’s Inn for almost 3 weeks as of Sunday, December 27, 2009. As my title states on this day she’s gone home and I must tell you I have grave concerns as I was able to spend Christmas Day with her, and from my perspective and my families perspective she wasn’t well and wasn’t ready to go home. On the 25th she was so home sick to see her family and almost in a grief stricken state of mind that I think she really manipulated the system, and even maybe her entire family as I think she just can’t see the big picture of the reason she’s where she is was for the sake of her family, to be able to return home to serve her family in a productive, normal, and emotional way. I’m really just heartbroken for her entire family meaning her husband, children, and all families that are involved as I’m afraid the journey is long from being over.

For the first time on the 26th in this long journey she was able see her husband and children and I’m afraid that is what got her ticket home as I believed she convinced him through emotions that she was well enough to return home. I know for him this hasn’t been easy and I’m sure that he wants his wife back home to reunite the unity of family and I might have done the same if I was in his shoes. I must tell you I really am somewhat angry with Stephanie as I feel that she may have set herself up for failure as the normal routine of life begins for her this Monday morning. There’s been so many people who have stepped up to plate to help her win this long battle with depression and so much sacrifice that I pray wasn’t all in vain. I know you guys might find this as not a positive message and I’m sorry but this is my heart and I’m such a believer in not sugar coating things and masking things that simply isn’t true so forgive me if you think it’s harsh, but it’s just REAL LIFE issues that must be.

Over the course of about the last 15 hours I’ve been able to get my thoughts around her return home and after speaking with a college friend of Stephanie and mine who was able to lay several areas of prayer that I thought needed to be shared with all us who have been involved in reading the blogs and email that I’ve sent out.

1. That her husband Tim made it clear to Stephanie if he saw her reverting back deeper in depression, she would return immediate to Hope’s Inn.
2. That her and her husband seeks out marriage/family council together and the right person is put in front of them for them to work through issue’s that have built up as it is felt that there are many.
3. That Stephanie finds a doctor that can put her on the correct course of true healing as she left Hope’s Inn with no medicine of any kind in her system. (I do feel that there are issue’s within her life that no medicine can heal that it must be healed from her heart and her families heart, but saying that I do feel that her chemicals in her brain triggers an imbalanced that needs medical treatment as we’ve seen this in our family for the last 35 years with our mother, brother, Stephanie, and myself)
4. That her son Nate gets accepted in Grace Christian Academy beginning in January and that his transition is of the most positive and productive manor that best fits his needs. Also pray for her son Nate who will be starting school next year.
5. That Stephanie finds a job that can give her an outlet where she can help support the family through financial needs, and that she also can have outside outlets and not be so bounded in the home. Stephanie is much like me a person who thrives on meeting people in all walks of life and growing true friendships through a relationship with Christ Jesus.


Last with my final prayer request and after a long night of thought I came to this conclusion, that God already knew she was going home and that the battle between, Satan which I believe can be lived out in our fleshly means as the Word is clear that flesh and Spirit will battle each other, will one day be won through the Power of our Lord! He is in control even when we can’t see it, and that His Word is without void. That He placed KING JESUS to walk among men and women some 2000 years ago and our KING went to a CROSS where He was CRUCIFIED, BEATEN, CUT, CURSED, SPIT ON, and truly things that we cannot even realized for this very thing. To help my sister, to help me, to help you who are reading this and that one day our KING is going to return to take HIS CHURCH(meaning the ones who truly know him) home to live with Him where there will be no pain, no tears, no depression, no family tension. LORD JESUS COME QUICKLY!

In closing once again I want to thank each of you for your prayers as they are still needed. Thank you for being so faithful, thank you for just who you are to me. Also as the need arise I will keep the blog updated.

In His deep and abiding Love

Steve

Slow Progress, but the Right Place

Here it is and Stephanie is going into her 7th week as of the 8th of this month, for us time is flying but for her I’m sure the clock has stopped. As you all know she’s in what I’ve been calling the Hosanna House but I think it’s really called Hope’s Inn which is in LaFayette, AL, for our LaFayette friends feel free to correct me if I’m wrong on that. As of yesterday Mother, Cammie and I think Bo got to go visit Stephanie. I spoke with Cammie last night and she said Stephanie looked so much better than what she’s been looking like, and that some of her feet shuffles, getting up & down, and ringing her hands together had disappeared as the staff at Hope’s Inn is winging her off some of the medications she’s on and feels that that some of the erratic movements are from the drug Abilify. Cammie did say that Steph is still dealing with not being saved and still thinks that she’s not going to be able to be saved, but she is not speaking that has frequent and the staff feels that within the next week or so she will really continue to improve greatly. Once again I know and feel as you also know Stephanie is saved and the devil is trying to rip her apart. She also is schedule for a doctor’s appointment sometimes I think this week. So pray for that pray for a continued healing and pray that we see our GREAT GOD perform a miracle in Stephanie’s life. Pray for her immediate family Tim, Nate, and Jake as she is extremely home- sick also pray that she will get to see them soon as it’s been 7 weeks since she saw them. Pray that God will open the necessary doors for that to happen.

God Bless

Steve

6th Week can you Believe It!

It's December 1st and I think today will be the beginning of Steph's 6th week from home and starting her 2nd week at Hopes Inn. Some of you have ask if you can visit and the answer is yes, but not until after she's been there 30 days, but the one thing you can do is send letters and cards to Hope's Inn PO Box 125, LaFayette, AL 36862. Please be encouraging and uplifting when you send them to her and let her know you are thinking about her and her family.

As far as an update I did see Steph on Thanksgiving day and she didn't seem to be having a very good day, it's hard to believe that Stephanie is still as deep as she is in this depression even though she's still is in amazing better shape than she was when she got here. I feel this is going to be a very long process and pray that everyone involved can just have God Power endurance to see this through, and as I've said before I'm committed to her to see this completely to the end!

Continue to pray for her and her family and everyone involved. She needs to feel God’s power touch her in a mighty way, and that she will know that He has reached down and touched her. She needs to be confident in what she’s doing, pray for her husband and children that God will sustain them and give the perfect peace, pray for their home to have order while the wife and mother is away. Pray for healing as she needs to be healed from this terrible disease!

In Christ

Steve