Going Home

It’s been a while since I’ve last blogged but I’ve had little to report over the last few weeks as Stephanie’s been in Hope’s Inn for almost 3 weeks as of Sunday, December 27, 2009. As my title states on this day she’s gone home and I must tell you I have grave concerns as I was able to spend Christmas Day with her, and from my perspective and my families perspective she wasn’t well and wasn’t ready to go home. On the 25th she was so home sick to see her family and almost in a grief stricken state of mind that I think she really manipulated the system, and even maybe her entire family as I think she just can’t see the big picture of the reason she’s where she is was for the sake of her family, to be able to return home to serve her family in a productive, normal, and emotional way. I’m really just heartbroken for her entire family meaning her husband, children, and all families that are involved as I’m afraid the journey is long from being over.

For the first time on the 26th in this long journey she was able see her husband and children and I’m afraid that is what got her ticket home as I believed she convinced him through emotions that she was well enough to return home. I know for him this hasn’t been easy and I’m sure that he wants his wife back home to reunite the unity of family and I might have done the same if I was in his shoes. I must tell you I really am somewhat angry with Stephanie as I feel that she may have set herself up for failure as the normal routine of life begins for her this Monday morning. There’s been so many people who have stepped up to plate to help her win this long battle with depression and so much sacrifice that I pray wasn’t all in vain. I know you guys might find this as not a positive message and I’m sorry but this is my heart and I’m such a believer in not sugar coating things and masking things that simply isn’t true so forgive me if you think it’s harsh, but it’s just REAL LIFE issues that must be.

Over the course of about the last 15 hours I’ve been able to get my thoughts around her return home and after speaking with a college friend of Stephanie and mine who was able to lay several areas of prayer that I thought needed to be shared with all us who have been involved in reading the blogs and email that I’ve sent out.

1. That her husband Tim made it clear to Stephanie if he saw her reverting back deeper in depression, she would return immediate to Hope’s Inn.
2. That her and her husband seeks out marriage/family council together and the right person is put in front of them for them to work through issue’s that have built up as it is felt that there are many.
3. That Stephanie finds a doctor that can put her on the correct course of true healing as she left Hope’s Inn with no medicine of any kind in her system. (I do feel that there are issue’s within her life that no medicine can heal that it must be healed from her heart and her families heart, but saying that I do feel that her chemicals in her brain triggers an imbalanced that needs medical treatment as we’ve seen this in our family for the last 35 years with our mother, brother, Stephanie, and myself)
4. That her son Nate gets accepted in Grace Christian Academy beginning in January and that his transition is of the most positive and productive manor that best fits his needs. Also pray for her son Nate who will be starting school next year.
5. That Stephanie finds a job that can give her an outlet where she can help support the family through financial needs, and that she also can have outside outlets and not be so bounded in the home. Stephanie is much like me a person who thrives on meeting people in all walks of life and growing true friendships through a relationship with Christ Jesus.


Last with my final prayer request and after a long night of thought I came to this conclusion, that God already knew she was going home and that the battle between, Satan which I believe can be lived out in our fleshly means as the Word is clear that flesh and Spirit will battle each other, will one day be won through the Power of our Lord! He is in control even when we can’t see it, and that His Word is without void. That He placed KING JESUS to walk among men and women some 2000 years ago and our KING went to a CROSS where He was CRUCIFIED, BEATEN, CUT, CURSED, SPIT ON, and truly things that we cannot even realized for this very thing. To help my sister, to help me, to help you who are reading this and that one day our KING is going to return to take HIS CHURCH(meaning the ones who truly know him) home to live with Him where there will be no pain, no tears, no depression, no family tension. LORD JESUS COME QUICKLY!

In closing once again I want to thank each of you for your prayers as they are still needed. Thank you for being so faithful, thank you for just who you are to me. Also as the need arise I will keep the blog updated.

In His deep and abiding Love

Steve