Today is March 26 and I haven't blogged in a while, but as most of you know from my last blog Stephanie left Hope's Inn and was admitted in to EAMC for almost 10 days and then she went home to Knoxville,TN. I must be honest as I have only spoken with her a few time since she returned home and every time I've spoken to her she seems to be stronger and stronger and from my reports she seems to be really doing well at this stage. I pray and I would ask for you guys to continue to pray for her, to strengthen her mind, and to heal her in every way possible that from this point forward she will never face depression again, as this really took a toll on her and her family. Unless I need to this will be my last blog about her progress.
Steve
Friday, March 26, 2010
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Speculation only Fuels Satan Fire
Today is Thursday, February 18, 2010 and it’s almost 6:00 a.m. actually 5:43 eastern time. I’ve been awake early this morning as my emotions sometimes get in the way of my sleep patterns. As all of you know I’ve been blogging about Stephanie for almost 4months now and so much has happened. I must tell you that she’s still very sick and still needs prayers, prayers, and more prayers. I would even ask if you feel led to FAST for her healing I’m convinced that God would honor that. That must be your conviction although and would never ask you do anything that wasn’t God led. The Word tells us in Matthew 6:16-18 how to fast according to His word this cannot be of man but of God and only to be seen by God.
I must tell you over the last few weeks I’ve gone through several types of emotions and maybe that just might be where I’m at due to my life situation as most of you know I’m unemployed and have been now for almost 10 months so needless to say things have gotten tight. I try not to worry about that as I feel that is only a minor issue in my life compared to the issue of my sister Stephanie. I can’t tell you enough just how sick she’s become and I’m just heart broken for her and her family…….my parents, my brother and sisters……and to all those who truly care for Stephanie. Just to be honest I absolutely can not see where this road will lead, but no matter where this road is now I’m assured that our great God already knows and convinced that He’s still in control.
You know so much as happened that can’t be understood……we’ve had people tell us so many different things some true, some false, and some not even to be spoken of. I’m convinced that Stephanie will come through this with the help of our Great Savior Jesus. We had some to say that she shouldn’t be on medicine, some to say that she’s not as sick as it appears, some to say that she may never get better etc……I msut say the truth may only be seen from the eye’s of God and I feel we must and shouldn’t speculate on where, what or how she is and I must tell you I’ve done this many times. I do believe the truth about her illness is very deep and that it must eventually come out I’m not sure if it’s chemical brain imbalanced, self induced depression that it is so deep, or really what it really is. I do know that Satan is trying his best to destroy her and her family and I hate him for that and I’m committed to praying against his destructive ways against my sister Stephanie. I also must tell you that through this I’m praying for God to use it for His glory as my oldest sister Cammie said to me last week that at the end of this no matter what method of healing it will take that we are going to give all glory to the Lord of Heaven who is the Father, The Son, and The Holy Spirit.
Stephanie is no longer at Hope's Inn and has been hopitalized as I will not disclose where as you will not be able to see her. Her Husband is in the process of making other arrangements for her continued care. Pray that his decisions will be the right decisions, pray that God will just lead him as I know he desires his wife to be whole and healthy and his desire is to have her back home with him and their children. I feel this will continue to be a length process but at the end our pray continues to be for ultimate healing.
And this is my focus for this blog this morning that it all belongs to Jesus the great physician, the Master of All Healing, The King all who know Him and the one that I bow down to and worship. He is the great all mighty God who can and will Heal Stephanie.
In closing let’s all pray to our King to fight this fight, to win this battle, to march Stephanie to victory, and to FREE her torment.
Praise the Lord, Praise the Lord Praise the Lord for He is Worthy of our Praise!
I must tell you over the last few weeks I’ve gone through several types of emotions and maybe that just might be where I’m at due to my life situation as most of you know I’m unemployed and have been now for almost 10 months so needless to say things have gotten tight. I try not to worry about that as I feel that is only a minor issue in my life compared to the issue of my sister Stephanie. I can’t tell you enough just how sick she’s become and I’m just heart broken for her and her family…….my parents, my brother and sisters……and to all those who truly care for Stephanie. Just to be honest I absolutely can not see where this road will lead, but no matter where this road is now I’m assured that our great God already knows and convinced that He’s still in control.
You know so much as happened that can’t be understood……we’ve had people tell us so many different things some true, some false, and some not even to be spoken of. I’m convinced that Stephanie will come through this with the help of our Great Savior Jesus. We had some to say that she shouldn’t be on medicine, some to say that she’s not as sick as it appears, some to say that she may never get better etc……I msut say the truth may only be seen from the eye’s of God and I feel we must and shouldn’t speculate on where, what or how she is and I must tell you I’ve done this many times. I do believe the truth about her illness is very deep and that it must eventually come out I’m not sure if it’s chemical brain imbalanced, self induced depression that it is so deep, or really what it really is. I do know that Satan is trying his best to destroy her and her family and I hate him for that and I’m committed to praying against his destructive ways against my sister Stephanie. I also must tell you that through this I’m praying for God to use it for His glory as my oldest sister Cammie said to me last week that at the end of this no matter what method of healing it will take that we are going to give all glory to the Lord of Heaven who is the Father, The Son, and The Holy Spirit.
Stephanie is no longer at Hope's Inn and has been hopitalized as I will not disclose where as you will not be able to see her. Her Husband is in the process of making other arrangements for her continued care. Pray that his decisions will be the right decisions, pray that God will just lead him as I know he desires his wife to be whole and healthy and his desire is to have her back home with him and their children. I feel this will continue to be a length process but at the end our pray continues to be for ultimate healing.
And this is my focus for this blog this morning that it all belongs to Jesus the great physician, the Master of All Healing, The King all who know Him and the one that I bow down to and worship. He is the great all mighty God who can and will Heal Stephanie.
In closing let’s all pray to our King to fight this fight, to win this battle, to march Stephanie to victory, and to FREE her torment.
Praise the Lord, Praise the Lord Praise the Lord for He is Worthy of our Praise!
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Concerend Beyond Measure
Today is Tuesday 2/9/2010 and it is urgent that I get this quick blog out to ask everyone to be in prayer for Stephanie. That decisons, minds, and feeling be put into the Almighty Hands of God. God take control of the totoal siutration Spirit comfort like you never comforted before.....fight for Stephanie......guide all involved to the right decisions.
Amen
Amen
Saturday, February 6, 2010
In His Hands Only!
Hello All,
I'm not sure who's still reading the blog, but I feel strongly that I must write tonight. As all of you know Stephanie went home the day after Christmas from Hope's Inn in LaFayette, AL against everyone's wishes. A week later she returned I think on the 2nd of January and has been back ever since. I ask that no one try's to contact her or visit her as she will not be able to see you or speak with you.
I must report that I get very limited information but I do know Steph is still very much stuggling with many issues and continues to need our prayer. I ask that we pray for her, her family and her will to continue as I feel that she's in the right place. I continue to pray that something will be exposed that might give Stephanie spritual freedom that truth will set you free for healing to begin.
Depression can take such a hold on life that it just bring such a numbness that it just destroys. The avenger tries to still everything....my prayer is that he want suceed and that King Jesus will bring such a healing that all of ours eyes will see and praise His Holy name. God I BELIVE you can heal my sister.....Your Will be Done!
I'm not sure who's still reading the blog, but I feel strongly that I must write tonight. As all of you know Stephanie went home the day after Christmas from Hope's Inn in LaFayette, AL against everyone's wishes. A week later she returned I think on the 2nd of January and has been back ever since. I ask that no one try's to contact her or visit her as she will not be able to see you or speak with you.
I must report that I get very limited information but I do know Steph is still very much stuggling with many issues and continues to need our prayer. I ask that we pray for her, her family and her will to continue as I feel that she's in the right place. I continue to pray that something will be exposed that might give Stephanie spritual freedom that truth will set you free for healing to begin.
Depression can take such a hold on life that it just bring such a numbness that it just destroys. The avenger tries to still everything....my prayer is that he want suceed and that King Jesus will bring such a healing that all of ours eyes will see and praise His Holy name. God I BELIVE you can heal my sister.....Your Will be Done!
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
The Battle Continues
Depression is just really hard to understand as I know first hand. I must report that Stephanie battles continue and I must ask that you continue bathing her in prayer. I think we tend to say that "I'll pray for her or I'll be praying for him, or I keep your family in my prayers" and I will tell you that I've said that countless time and have failed that person or family in not doing just what I said I would do is pray. An honestly I've not meant to that is it just happens! So I plead tonight that when you say that you will pray for Stephanie, pray without ceasing, make it a priority ask God to just intervene in this situration. That our advocate in Heaven who is Chirst Jesus hears our call to Him that she be healed and that she be healed imediately.
I've claimed this verse for all of us in this time of need
Call to ME and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know. Jeremiah 33:3
I've claimed this verse for all of us in this time of need
Call to ME and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know. Jeremiah 33:3
Monday, December 28, 2009
Going Home
It’s been a while since I’ve last blogged but I’ve had little to report over the last few weeks as Stephanie’s been in Hope’s Inn for almost 3 weeks as of Sunday, December 27, 2009. As my title states on this day she’s gone home and I must tell you I have grave concerns as I was able to spend Christmas Day with her, and from my perspective and my families perspective she wasn’t well and wasn’t ready to go home. On the 25th she was so home sick to see her family and almost in a grief stricken state of mind that I think she really manipulated the system, and even maybe her entire family as I think she just can’t see the big picture of the reason she’s where she is was for the sake of her family, to be able to return home to serve her family in a productive, normal, and emotional way. I’m really just heartbroken for her entire family meaning her husband, children, and all families that are involved as I’m afraid the journey is long from being over.
For the first time on the 26th in this long journey she was able see her husband and children and I’m afraid that is what got her ticket home as I believed she convinced him through emotions that she was well enough to return home. I know for him this hasn’t been easy and I’m sure that he wants his wife back home to reunite the unity of family and I might have done the same if I was in his shoes. I must tell you I really am somewhat angry with Stephanie as I feel that she may have set herself up for failure as the normal routine of life begins for her this Monday morning. There’s been so many people who have stepped up to plate to help her win this long battle with depression and so much sacrifice that I pray wasn’t all in vain. I know you guys might find this as not a positive message and I’m sorry but this is my heart and I’m such a believer in not sugar coating things and masking things that simply isn’t true so forgive me if you think it’s harsh, but it’s just REAL LIFE issues that must be.
Over the course of about the last 15 hours I’ve been able to get my thoughts around her return home and after speaking with a college friend of Stephanie and mine who was able to lay several areas of prayer that I thought needed to be shared with all us who have been involved in reading the blogs and email that I’ve sent out.
1. That her husband Tim made it clear to Stephanie if he saw her reverting back deeper in depression, she would return immediate to Hope’s Inn.
2. That her and her husband seeks out marriage/family council together and the right person is put in front of them for them to work through issue’s that have built up as it is felt that there are many.
3. That Stephanie finds a doctor that can put her on the correct course of true healing as she left Hope’s Inn with no medicine of any kind in her system. (I do feel that there are issue’s within her life that no medicine can heal that it must be healed from her heart and her families heart, but saying that I do feel that her chemicals in her brain triggers an imbalanced that needs medical treatment as we’ve seen this in our family for the last 35 years with our mother, brother, Stephanie, and myself)
4. That her son Nate gets accepted in Grace Christian Academy beginning in January and that his transition is of the most positive and productive manor that best fits his needs. Also pray for her son Nate who will be starting school next year.
5. That Stephanie finds a job that can give her an outlet where she can help support the family through financial needs, and that she also can have outside outlets and not be so bounded in the home. Stephanie is much like me a person who thrives on meeting people in all walks of life and growing true friendships through a relationship with Christ Jesus.
Last with my final prayer request and after a long night of thought I came to this conclusion, that God already knew she was going home and that the battle between, Satan which I believe can be lived out in our fleshly means as the Word is clear that flesh and Spirit will battle each other, will one day be won through the Power of our Lord! He is in control even when we can’t see it, and that His Word is without void. That He placed KING JESUS to walk among men and women some 2000 years ago and our KING went to a CROSS where He was CRUCIFIED, BEATEN, CUT, CURSED, SPIT ON, and truly things that we cannot even realized for this very thing. To help my sister, to help me, to help you who are reading this and that one day our KING is going to return to take HIS CHURCH(meaning the ones who truly know him) home to live with Him where there will be no pain, no tears, no depression, no family tension. LORD JESUS COME QUICKLY!
In closing once again I want to thank each of you for your prayers as they are still needed. Thank you for being so faithful, thank you for just who you are to me. Also as the need arise I will keep the blog updated.
In His deep and abiding Love
Steve
For the first time on the 26th in this long journey she was able see her husband and children and I’m afraid that is what got her ticket home as I believed she convinced him through emotions that she was well enough to return home. I know for him this hasn’t been easy and I’m sure that he wants his wife back home to reunite the unity of family and I might have done the same if I was in his shoes. I must tell you I really am somewhat angry with Stephanie as I feel that she may have set herself up for failure as the normal routine of life begins for her this Monday morning. There’s been so many people who have stepped up to plate to help her win this long battle with depression and so much sacrifice that I pray wasn’t all in vain. I know you guys might find this as not a positive message and I’m sorry but this is my heart and I’m such a believer in not sugar coating things and masking things that simply isn’t true so forgive me if you think it’s harsh, but it’s just REAL LIFE issues that must be.
Over the course of about the last 15 hours I’ve been able to get my thoughts around her return home and after speaking with a college friend of Stephanie and mine who was able to lay several areas of prayer that I thought needed to be shared with all us who have been involved in reading the blogs and email that I’ve sent out.
1. That her husband Tim made it clear to Stephanie if he saw her reverting back deeper in depression, she would return immediate to Hope’s Inn.
2. That her and her husband seeks out marriage/family council together and the right person is put in front of them for them to work through issue’s that have built up as it is felt that there are many.
3. That Stephanie finds a doctor that can put her on the correct course of true healing as she left Hope’s Inn with no medicine of any kind in her system. (I do feel that there are issue’s within her life that no medicine can heal that it must be healed from her heart and her families heart, but saying that I do feel that her chemicals in her brain triggers an imbalanced that needs medical treatment as we’ve seen this in our family for the last 35 years with our mother, brother, Stephanie, and myself)
4. That her son Nate gets accepted in Grace Christian Academy beginning in January and that his transition is of the most positive and productive manor that best fits his needs. Also pray for her son Nate who will be starting school next year.
5. That Stephanie finds a job that can give her an outlet where she can help support the family through financial needs, and that she also can have outside outlets and not be so bounded in the home. Stephanie is much like me a person who thrives on meeting people in all walks of life and growing true friendships through a relationship with Christ Jesus.
Last with my final prayer request and after a long night of thought I came to this conclusion, that God already knew she was going home and that the battle between, Satan which I believe can be lived out in our fleshly means as the Word is clear that flesh and Spirit will battle each other, will one day be won through the Power of our Lord! He is in control even when we can’t see it, and that His Word is without void. That He placed KING JESUS to walk among men and women some 2000 years ago and our KING went to a CROSS where He was CRUCIFIED, BEATEN, CUT, CURSED, SPIT ON, and truly things that we cannot even realized for this very thing. To help my sister, to help me, to help you who are reading this and that one day our KING is going to return to take HIS CHURCH(meaning the ones who truly know him) home to live with Him where there will be no pain, no tears, no depression, no family tension. LORD JESUS COME QUICKLY!
In closing once again I want to thank each of you for your prayers as they are still needed. Thank you for being so faithful, thank you for just who you are to me. Also as the need arise I will keep the blog updated.
In His deep and abiding Love
Steve
Monday, December 7, 2009
Slow Progress, but the Right Place
Here it is and Stephanie is going into her 7th week as of the 8th of this month, for us time is flying but for her I’m sure the clock has stopped. As you all know she’s in what I’ve been calling the Hosanna House but I think it’s really called Hope’s Inn which is in LaFayette, AL, for our LaFayette friends feel free to correct me if I’m wrong on that. As of yesterday Mother, Cammie and I think Bo got to go visit Stephanie. I spoke with Cammie last night and she said Stephanie looked so much better than what she’s been looking like, and that some of her feet shuffles, getting up & down, and ringing her hands together had disappeared as the staff at Hope’s Inn is winging her off some of the medications she’s on and feels that that some of the erratic movements are from the drug Abilify. Cammie did say that Steph is still dealing with not being saved and still thinks that she’s not going to be able to be saved, but she is not speaking that has frequent and the staff feels that within the next week or so she will really continue to improve greatly. Once again I know and feel as you also know Stephanie is saved and the devil is trying to rip her apart. She also is schedule for a doctor’s appointment sometimes I think this week. So pray for that pray for a continued healing and pray that we see our GREAT GOD perform a miracle in Stephanie’s life. Pray for her immediate family Tim, Nate, and Jake as she is extremely home- sick also pray that she will get to see them soon as it’s been 7 weeks since she saw them. Pray that God will open the necessary doors for that to happen.
God Bless
Steve
God Bless
Steve
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