Day 14 I really can't believe it's day 14. I picked Stephanie up from my parents today and when I saw her I thought she didn't quite look as good as I left her on Friday afternoon, but as we drove home she talked more and didn't quite obsessed about things as she has in the past. This where I want to start this blog as I've ask Stephanie just how much I can share and she’s given me permission to share this. Stephanie as most of you know who really know is one of the finest Christian women that I know, she had a huge influence in my own personal life when I became a true believe some 20 or 21 years ago and that’s really where I will begin. See Stephanie for those of you who don’t know her is one of the most Bible believing individual that I know, but for some reason when Stephanie goes through this she begins to have doubts about her salvations that somehow she's rejected the Holy Spirit in the past and didn't even realize it and God has turned her back on her and it's too late to be saved. No matter what anybody says or how much we share the gospel with her she still has obsessive behavior that she's not saved. I will tell you that without a shadow of a doubt my sister is a child of the most High God and has a place in the Kingdom of Heaven.
Some of you reading this may think not the Stephanie I know, but for some reason the avenger the devil seeks to kill her, destroy her, and disrupt her belief system. Isn't that just like the devil to attack her on who she loves most and that is Father God! The great I AM, the Alpha and Omega! Just for this record I've been able just set back and see how Satan attacks us just from my sister been here with me. See in the previous post I shared that I too went through a depression where I almost lost everything dear to me, and believe it or not that’s exactly what I was obsessing over that I was going to lose my company, my family, my home, my children etc.......and it was driving me crazy. Couldn’t sleep, couldn't eat, night sweats, excessive movements and one thought COMPLETE FAILURE! I will never forget it!
So from my 2 observation Stephanie's and myself is I think and this is only my opinion is that Satan knows our weaknesses see I realized that maybe my first love was trying to be successful, big house, big cars, big job, etc......and from this experience I realized that I wasn't true to myself that my first love should be my God in heaven, the God that created 350,000,000,000 galaxies and yes I think that is billion, the God that put 6 million leaves on an average elm tree, the God that created this earth where Louie Armstrong as he took off from the moon looked down and saw planet earth and took his thumb and measured the size of earth with the tip of it. He made a statement that he realized he felt really small. You see God is big God he's our creator who created us for HIS purpose and not the other way around.
So you might ask what does this have to relate to depression and Stephanie. See as I said maybe my first love may have been money, success, things, but I've come full circle. You see in April what I thought and was obsessing about happened. I closed my business, I haven't found a job, things are tight, but guess what? I'm the riches person alive, because you see I have this person called Jesus who chose me and who is doing an extradinary thing in my life.....something that may have taken me 44 years to realize is TRUST JESUS. You see I'm confident that Stephanie will get through this and that she too will realize trusting JESUS will happen again......as she will gain her thoughts and her beliefs system back in order.....then she too will understand that satan attacks, but Jesus wins!!!! So on day 14 I ask for the same prayers; medicine takes immediate effect, true healing will occur, doctors have the mind of Jesus and that He gives this doctor perfect thought on her continued progress, and that these negative thoughts leave her forever and ever. May the King of Heaven get all the Glory---Amen
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